Wednesday, June 8, 2011Yours truly
Just having some random thoughts going through my mind right now and thought it would be good to let it out here.
A while back, I was on the cab on my way home from work and thinking a lot to myself.
I guess everybody have a blissfulness that only belongs to them and no one else.
It could come in any kind of form.
Some could be through BGR, friendship, kinship or even school work.
Anything.
But yet somehow, people like to compare blissfulness mainly through wealth and love relationship.
Comparisons of blissfulness through wealth had long ago existed.
Maybe ever since money was created.
But to compare blissfulness through love relationship, that is something to think about.
If you see a couple that is loving till the last breathe of their life, you will feel envious of them.
And deep down in your heart, you hope you can find that special someone that you can live with, like that blissful couple.
If you and your spouse's relationship went well and ends well, good for you.
But what if it did not go well or end well?
Does that mean that you are not as blissful as those who have a good love relationship?
To me, if a love relationship does not end well, it definitely does not mean that the two main person involved are not blissful.
To be in a relationship, whether if it goes well or not, it is already a blissful thing.
Provided that relationship is not a forced relationship.
To like somebody but not get any returns in the end is also a blissful thing.
It is the process of all relationship that defines the blissfulness.
Surely at some point of that relationship, you feel happy.
So what if the person you like does not end up together with you?
Definitely at some point, when the both of you are in a love dilemma, you had some wonderful memories of it.
So what if you broke up with the person that you thought you could marry with?
Definitely at some point, when the both of you were in love, you had some wonderful memories.
And that, is a blissfulness that belongs only to you, or the both of you.
And that is all that matters.
Maybe some will say that it is the wonderful memories that makes the heart aches even more.
But for me, I would rather have those great memories and feel the heartache more intense, than to forgo the chance of creating those memories.
Life still goes on no matter what sadness happens around you.
Why dwell on those blissfulness that had never happened to you?
Instead, cherish the blissfulness that you have now, and embrace those blissfulness that you had before in the past.
I'm not sure if all that I had said made sense to anybody.
I'm not sure if I was saying all that to make myself feel better.
But for now, I would like to think like this.
Memories of sadness may overpower memories of happiness, but they can never take them away.
Was Bitching At 12:23 AM♥
Tuesday, June 7, 2011Undone
I've got shit loads of stuffs to do but am either too busy or lazy to do it.
Kind of sick of working as well.
I'm like kind of dragging my feet to work almost every time.
But yet somehow I can't stop accepting job offers.
My chores are piling up but even if I have an off day, I would rather slack then get it done.
Come to think of it, even on my off day I'm running around doing other errands rather than staying home to rest.
There are always a million things for me to do.
And I consider slacking one of them. Haha.
I had indigestion yesterday and vomited out all my lunch.
My gastric hurt like hell and my throat burned cause of the gastric juice.
Worst indigestion ever.
Wanted to go for Japanese class but did not go in the end due to the discomfort.
Took a cab home and fall into coma on my bed instead.
Am feeling much better now.
Hopefully I will buck up when the sun rises and get all the stuffs that needs to be done done.
A few days back I saw somebody who had an outlook that you had in the past. I could not stop stealing glances and think about you.
Was Bitching At 2:13 AM♥