Saturday, January 9, 2010Temperamental
People who don't like seeing the F word you can fucking hell get lost now cause right now I'm in a really fucked up mood and I'm gonna use countless of fuck in this post.
If I could disappear from the surface of this fucking world right now that would be so nice.
No one I know will be able to find me or contact me.
I could have a little peace of my own.
I know I'm not God.
I know I'm not perfect either.
So, I can't expect myself to be that good to change people's character to my liking.
Nor can I always have things done my way.
Fuck attachment.
Fuck those other selfish bastards.
Fuck the system.
Fuck those who always ruin my day.
Fuck the stupid school.
Fuck housework.
Fuck hypocrites.
Fuck the second-hand smoke.
I know I'm a selfish idiot.
An ungrateful bitch.
A very bad tempered person.
An evil-hearted moron.
A very vulgar person.
A very rude person.
But, for once, I don't wish to do anything about it.
I had never been a good person and I don't wish to fucking care anymore.
I know because of those fucking hypocrites I'm hurting my loved ones.
I just cant control myself anymore.
I just want to be left alone, drowned in my own sorrows without a heck of the world.
Yes, my wish to suddenly disappear from the surface of the earth is here again.
If I'm gone, I won't have to see people that I dislike anymore.
Best of all I won't have to see things I hate anymore.
Yes it is selfish cause it might be hurtful for my loved ones.
But hey, I'm not such a good person so they will get over it soon.
If only I can live without fucking caring about the world, life would probably be very good.
I would probably be very happy.
Funny how all these things that I hate are reforming my evil side.
They could be the cause of me losing myself.
Or maybe, they are just trying to remove the facade I've been having all along.
Sorry if I've failed you.
I had failed myself too.
But I don't wish to fucking care anymore.
Maybe, maybe time will help me out and change me back.
Was Bitching At 7:37 AM♥