Friday, January 22, 2010Oopsy Daisy
Day 43 and thankfully still counting.
Funny how a person can be able to bring your heart for a roller coaster ride.
Seriously, I know that action speaks louder than words.
Thanks for really knocking some sense into me.
I should seriously work on myself.
Another 15 more days for hell to be over.
Thailand, I'm coming for you.
Oopsy daisy I hurt you again. I'm a walking disaster.
Was Bitching At 9:37 PM♥
Tuesday, January 12, 20101st Month
Happy 1st month.
Or rather the 32nd day.
Funny how the quarrel seems so nonsensical now.
I learnt yesterday that love is patience, love is kind blah blah blah.
Didn't really bother remembering about the rest of the verse.
Anyway main point is that love should always be a good thing.
If there is anything bad that is produced out of it is no longer called love.
Woah. Inspirational.
Alright I'm starting to sound like I'm blabbering nonsense.
There is a high tendency that I might get diabetes one day.
Was Bitching At 2:04 AM♥
Saturday, January 9, 2010Temperamental
People who don't like seeing the F word you can fucking hell get lost now cause right now I'm in a really fucked up mood and I'm gonna use countless of fuck in this post.
If I could disappear from the surface of this fucking world right now that would be so nice.
No one I know will be able to find me or contact me.
I could have a little peace of my own.
I know I'm not God.
I know I'm not perfect either.
So, I can't expect myself to be that good to change people's character to my liking.
Nor can I always have things done my way.
Fuck attachment.
Fuck those other selfish bastards.
Fuck the system.
Fuck those who always ruin my day.
Fuck the stupid school.
Fuck housework.
Fuck hypocrites.
Fuck the second-hand smoke.
I know I'm a selfish idiot.
An ungrateful bitch.
A very bad tempered person.
An evil-hearted moron.
A very vulgar person.
A very rude person.
But, for once, I don't wish to do anything about it.
I had never been a good person and I don't wish to fucking care anymore.
I know because of those fucking hypocrites I'm hurting my loved ones.
I just cant control myself anymore.
I just want to be left alone, drowned in my own sorrows without a heck of the world.
Yes, my wish to suddenly disappear from the surface of the earth is here again.
If I'm gone, I won't have to see people that I dislike anymore.
Best of all I won't have to see things I hate anymore.
Yes it is selfish cause it might be hurtful for my loved ones.
But hey, I'm not such a good person so they will get over it soon.
If only I can live without fucking caring about the world, life would probably be very good.
I would probably be very happy.
Funny how all these things that I hate are reforming my evil side.
They could be the cause of me losing myself.
Or maybe, they are just trying to remove the facade I've been having all along.
Sorry if I've failed you.
I had failed myself too.
But I don't wish to fucking care anymore.
Maybe, maybe time will help me out and change me back.
Was Bitching At 7:37 AM♥
Monday, January 4, 20102010
I've been on a hiatus for too long I guess.
Many stuffs happened and to tell the truth I'm feeling quite lazy to talk about all the details.
First off, the most important thing is that right now I'm happy.
Really happy.
Cause I'm attached to a wonderful Creature.
Never ever had I thought I would find such a nice creature, but hola, God is kind to me.
And I'm glad no one got hurt in the process of me choosing my beloved creature.
I celebrated my 19th birthday by working.
But my colleagues gave me a really wonderful surprise.
Kinda embarrassing but really nice of them to celebrate for me.
It was one of a birthday experience I guess I'm lucky to have experienced.
For awhile I just feel that seriously, everybody have a good side somehow.
On the 20th Dec 2009, I took my first bungy ride.
The ride is Oh My Goodness. Shiok. Really Shiok.
When the ball is released into the sky, you would have thought that you left your heart on the ground.
When the ball is bouncing in the air, your body just feel lost.
You don't know where to place your hands and to show what kind of facial expressions.
When the ball is suspended in the mid air, the view is just breathe-taking.
Though the ride is kind of expensive, but I think it is really worth it.
I went to my first night safari trip on the last day of 2009.
Another memorable trip it was cause of the presence of Mr. Creature.
And do take the tram ride to make the trip worth while.
Mmm...right now I just feel that I'm really a very lucky person.
God really loves me and blessed me a lot.
He gave me a present that I had always dreamed of.
With that, I'm really thankful for each day and for each and every memory.
I really do cherish them a lot.
Fairytales do exist, just a matter of whether you are lucky enough to experience one or not.
Was Bitching At 1:22 AM♥