GAB'S BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Friday, October 30, 2009

It's hard to say

i you me he she him her them they

hope love faith joy fear

u mi ni ikitai desu

are is were was has had have

alright ok no problem no worries

i diot morons bastards bitches

miss mr mrs madam sir

you yours mine theirs

alot little much less

It's wrong of me to enter your life and make things worst

Was Bitching At 2:09 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Shit happens

Got drove home in a car traveling at a speed of 150kmh.

Thank God I did not throw up.

Then ran up don't know how many flights of staircases in total darkness to reach the 14th floor.

The whole building chose a damn good time to blackout and the lift could not work.

And a stupid cat came out of no where and scared the shit out of me while I was climbing.

Called my brother to come down and accompany me up.

But that lazy bum was obviously lazy to.

I knew it all along but I still called cause who knows when a miracle will happen.

Apparently it does not exist this time round.

Now I seriously feel like throwing up.

I read it so many times because it still feels like a dream.

Was Bitching At 1:26 AM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Friday, October 23, 2009

All I can say is ARGH!!!

ARGH!!! ARGH again!!! ARGH some more!!! ARGH furthermore!!!

I CAN SO TOTALLY SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT NOW!!!

*Runs to the kitchen and back in front of the screen again*

*Slaps Gab's face*

*Grab and pull Gab's hair*

If not for the fact that it is already 4am plus I would certainly scream as loud as I can.

I need to be up in a few hours time and here I'm still typing this post.

Just got home and read something that caused me to be crazy like this.

I can't breathe properly or sit still.

I was thinking of doing something before the reading but I totally forgot what was it.

I can see the positive side of things.

I can see the negative side of things.

But I don't know what my reply should be.

Cause I'm too high now to think straight.

Think I need some time to let the high-ness go away before I can think properly on what to do next.

And I think the high-ness is going to make me talk rubbish for the next few days.

Chicken Macnuggets.

My eyes are tired but my mind is hyperactive now.

How? Cannot go to sleep le la. Damn it.

Should I try banging my head against the wall so that I can get some sleep?

I wish I had a trampoline to jump on now.

Was Bitching At 4:30 AM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Monday, October 19, 2009

Life is so unpredictable

Just heard from my Mama that her friend's son died of cancer.

Though I don't really know her friend well, but still the news is saddening.

Think her son is only like in his early 20s?

Everyday there is someone dying.

But on the lighter note, everyday babies are born.

Was late for work today cause I was being myself, taking my own sweet time.

Today is the most relaxing day so far.

Cause I got to go off at 4pm plus.

Went back school for Japanese lessons.

Got a shock when I saw Yoko Sensei's bulging tummy.

She is pregnant.

She said that if we do not give her too much stress, she will try her best not to deliver the baby in the class. Haha.

And for don't know how many donkey years, I finally went for bible reading today.

Glad I did so cause I felt so much better after going.

Learnt to see things in a different perspective.

"As it is written: There is no one righteous, not even one"

Romans 3:1

Other than your updates, 2 days had passed without hearing much from you.

But I can't explain why the sound of your voice still rings loud in my ears every time I think about you.

Was Bitching At 11:32 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Happy 1 year old

I was supposed to wake up early to do lots of stuffs today.

In the end I woke up at 12pm.

Oh well, ain't I always making empty promises to myself?

Sorry EdmundHow for being late today.

Thank You EdmundHow for spending today with me.

I feel revitalized again.

Shopping never fails to charge up my spirit's batteries.

It's been 1 year since I started this blog.

Looking back at those past entries, I wonder if I had grown any better.

Maybe a little. Maybe not.

But there is definitely a change. Somehow.

Memories flashes back.

Lessons learnt reviewed again.

Thanks a lot my dear blog.

Tomorrow is the start of the new school semester.

I'm regretting a little for not stopping my Japanese lessons.

And for signing up the JLPT exams.

I'm afraid I won't have time to do well for them.

Work is already so hectic. Time is so little.

Oh man. Serves me right for bringing this stress upon myself.

What done is done, just hope that everything turns out fine.

Geez...I can feel the Monday blues hitting me.

Here I am still leading my messed up life.

Was Bitching At 11:44 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I'm so mean

I dreamt that I burped.

And it scared the shit out of my brother.

Caused I sounded like some crane.

I laughed so hard in the dream when I saw my brother's shocked face.

But I can't remembered it when I woke up.

Wasted.

Anyway, NigelTan just got his 4 wisdom tooth(s) extracted.

The operation caused his face to look swollen.

And it makes my day to see 'it' everyday.

Caused it is so hilarious.

HAHA. I'm evil.

There someone whom I'm not sure whether to deem as a traitor or not.

After all, in the real world, it is everyone is for one's own gain.

So it is not totally wrong for Alpha to do what Alpha did.

Just that the thought that Alpha is so fake keeps popping in my brain.

And every time I have to reason with myself to stop my dislike from showing

There is just too many things that I can't stand observing.

Well, what I don't do does not mean that others don't.

Guess I just have to live with it cause there is definitely more to come.

Life sucks. Just how many times do I have to admit that?

Was Bitching At 10:52 AM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Stop the Pretence

I hate the system.

I hate breathing in all that secondhand smoke.

I hate when asked, our answers are used as weapons against us.

So just get lost you face-changers.

Thanks for showing me all your different kinds of masks.

Was Bitching At 11:42 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Monday, October 12, 2009

Still wavering

Someone just updated.

Nothing much about it.

But my heart skipped a beat when I saw it.

I still want to hear from him.

I still want to know what's going on around him.

Today was a happy day.

Because of what is written on that message.

Though it meant another thing.

But I still see it in another way.

Damn.

Wasn't I supposed to give up already?

Someone please just knock my senses back in.

Was Bitching At 11:58 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Saturday, October 10, 2009

I survived the week.

Another week is finally gone.

I'm not sure if that is a bad thing or a good thing.

Nevertheless this week was not really bad anyway.

Joke of the week #1:

Michael bang his head against a glass panel.

Lucky me got the 2nd best seat to see this whole ordeal cause I was just behind him.

Thank God I had shorter legs and walked slower than him or not it could have been me banging the glass panel instead.

Seriously hilarious.

Our colleagues who were there and saw the incident also laugh like hell.

I think I laughed for at least half the day.

Joke of the week #2:

NigelZhuo slipped and fall at CityHall Chamber.

I did not get to see it. Sad.

But the funny part was, everyone was saying it was his retribution for throwing away a KFC drumstick.

Cause we bought KFC for dinner that day and NigelZ being the I-must-always-eat-healthy-food guy just threw the whole drumstick.

What the crap right?

First time I heard of people throwing away uneaten KFC drumstick.

In the world of chicken drumstick, KFC's is like the brand Guess.

It is not a very very high end brand like LV.

But it is still definitely a branded.

So serve him right for throwing it away. Haha.

Yunwei also got this big bruise on her knee for banging it against a glass table top.

Silly her.

So now it is only me left that had not had any injuries or bloopers yet.

The other 3 of them are still waiting for mine to happen.

Unfortunately, lady luck had still been smiling on me. Bleh =P

And I bought the most Wrigley's Extra Professional forest berries flavoured sweets ever before in my life.

Think there are like 11 of them.

Bought them cause they were on offer.

Buy 10 get 1 free. Haha.

(I know there are people calling me auntie already. Whatever.)

I could literally smell the sweets from their unopened casing.

Also met ZhaoXiu, Edmund and Candice for dinner on Friday.

Forgot to take picture with Candice before she left.

But I had a good chit chat session with all of them.

I finally felt like I'm not that outcasted from my friends' lives.

I've got to admit that somehow the 3 of us look quite alike in a way.

Playing with the camera's effects again.

Forever 1 will be black and 1 will be white.

I'll take it as a compliment if you say I looked like a pig cause I was obviously imitating one.

Slowly, painfully, I'm trying to get myself back.

Was Bitching At 11:12 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Saturday, October 3, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEAN TAN YONG MING

Gab: Happy 22nd birthday! Enjoy your day =>

Sean: Haha. Fuck is 23rd man.

I forgot I'm no longer 18 this year. Lol.

Yeah I'm the best sister in the world. Haha.

I know you do read my blog, so here is another birthday wish to make up for having no presents and the mistake that I had made.

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There so many people giving lectures/advices and I'm sick of it.

F off people.

You bloody people were the ones who asked those stupid questions.

So if we gave a answer you did not like, it's our problem?!

Then bloody hell stop asking those same stupid questions la.

You tell us go right and we did so and now you are telling us we should not have done so?

I'm so pissed by your systems.

It's so totally crap.

I'm not a boot licker nor a hard worker.

I just like to do what I think I should do.

If it does not pleases you guys, then I'm sorry.

Cause no way I'm gonna comply all the time.

It is hard for everyday to be a happy day.

Was Bitching At 11:50 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Tired soul

I'm giving up.

I remembered why I held on for so long.

I was hoping for a miracle.

But it did not happen.

I'm giving up.

I lacked the courage to confess.

Your skull is so thick.

My hints could not get through.

I'm giving up.

My emotions changed with your every image,

That goes through my brain.

Enough of the roller-coaster rides.

I'm giving up.

This heart of mine is panting hard,

From the solo marathon.

I had ran too far off.

I'm giving up.

Songs you sung to me,

Still resonates within me.

Please let those music notes fade away.

I'm giving up.

I should not have fired the start gun.

Water droplets dripping down my face now.

It is so pathetic.

I'm giving up.

My heart is reluctant.

This hurts so bad.

Only cure is to wait for the numbness to follow.

I'm sorry for not being able to hang on alone.

Was Bitching At 11:40 PM♥

If only I had wings to fly