Thursday, August 27, 2009The last strive
I will be having my last paper later on.
Right now, I feel more clear headed.
Though the stress is still there, but at least I'm not having that depressing feeling anymore.
Many thanks to Andrew Poh for teaching me VC.
Suddenly realised that though mugging is a pain in the ass, but there is also a fun side to it.
Studying together with friends is fun.
When everyone is stressed out, we do stupid and crazy things.
And it is these stuffs which makes me feel studying is worth it.
It makes me think, if I were given a choice of studying and you get to be together with your friends, or not studying but you will not get to be together with your friends, I would much rather take the first.
No wonder they say no pain no gain.
I don't know how long we can all stay the same way we are now.
And I don't know if the future changes will be good or bad.
Nevertheless, what has to come will come, so I shall not think too much about them either.
Since I've been staying at the loft for past few days, I think I'm neglecting my Mama a lot.
I know I speak to my Mama in a rude manner but I guess this is the way I communicate with her?
Whatever.
I can't possibly change overnight so I guess I will need some time to change.
But its ok.
As long as I know I love my Mama.
It is better than those bastards who pretends to be good on the surface but when their parents have difficulties, they will push all the responsibilities of taking care of them.
Sometimes I really wish I have the powers of Dumbledore, where he was able to get memories out of his head and store them in bottles.
This way, my mind won't feel so jammed and packed.
Alright, gotta go back and mug.
Wish me and give me lots of luck. =>
がんばってね ガブリエルさん。
Was Bitching At 12:55 AM♥
Tuesday, August 25, 2009I feel like crap
Seriously.
I'm so blanking out when I should not.
My attention span can't even last for 15 minutes.
I'm so gonna do badly for the exams.
I feel very pressurized.
But despite that, the more I feel like blanking out.
There is like this thing in my mind speaking to me whenever I'm studying:
'Hey Gab, what the hell are you studying for?'
'To get good grades?'
'For what?'
'Erm...Get into university?'
'Is that really the place you want to go?'
'I've no freaking idea. I don't know man.'
Seems like everyone is absorbing but I'm not.
There is a big blockage in my brain.
There is something wrong with me that I can't explain.
It is as if I have a split personality and the second me is trying to take over the first me.
I really feel like shit.
Time is running out and I can feel it.
But my body just ain't responding in accordance to it.
I can't seem to relax.
I feel like I'm gonna burst into pieces.
I need something.
Something for me to work towards to.
Something to keep me back to my normal self.
Something to make me stop feeling like crap.
A new resolution.
A new goal.
A new person.
A new revelation.
A new advice.
A new environment.
Anything.
Anything that can keep me in control.
Anything that can save me from this crap feeling.
Some things just aren't meant to be so why am I forcing for the not-meant-to-be?
I just feel that I'm either trying too hard or missing out something in life.
Was Bitching At 1:50 AM♥
Saturday, August 22, 2009So many first times
Today is one day where I experienced so many first times. Met up with ZhaoXiu, Edmund, Daryl and XianWang to go to the Suntec jobfair. Before heading for the event, we had our lunch at City Link's Asian Kitchen. My first time eating at Asian Kitchen. The food was not bad.
Preparing to camwhore while waiting for the food.
ZhaoXiu is just one person you definitely must disturb.
Do I see 4 or 3 guys?
Smile you moron. Very unwilling to take picture with me is it?
Damn it. Still unwilling to smile.
Nice candid shot.
The food was taking so long that I grew mustache already.
When the waitress served us our food, it was so freaking funny. ZhaoXiu ordered Dan Dan Mian and they heard the waitress pronounce it as London Mian(London noodles) while I heard it as Lan Lan Mian(Rotten noodles). Then XianWang's Duck Mian(duck noodles), we heard it as Dung Mian(cowdung?). Was it our ears' fault or the waitress pronunciation?
My Zha Jiang Mian(Minced Meat Noodles with Dark sauce).
My dessert, Mango Sago. Very mango-ish.
I forgot what I was distracted with to miss posing for this camera.
Eh boy, stop stealing my food la.
Doesn't that slimy thingy looks like mucus?
Before we leave must camwhore again. What long tongue they have seh.
Act glam.
Tak glam.
Daryl does not like taking pictures with the both of them.
ZhaoXiu just cannot keep her mouth close.
After lunch went for the Job fair. My first time being to a job fair event. Not that I need a job since I still got IKEA as back up, just accompanying them for fun. The fair was so bloody crowded. It was even more popular than the PALME event. Even though today was only opened for Singaporeans and PR, it was still freaking crowded. Recession is really bad I guess.
Went to Macdonalds to lepak after the we finished with the job fair. We were only there for like 30minutes and it felt like I was there for hours. Must be the stupid crowd that caused me so much misery. I could barely walk freely while being squashed by so many uncles and aunties. We then decided to go XianWang's house to play Wii.
Must camwhore whenever we can. In the train towards XianWang's house.
Bugs Bunny and Donald Duck.
Serious handshake. Sumimasen.
Ok ok, I know you got long tongue so no need show off ok Zhao Xiu.
So many people staring at us but we couldn't give a heck. Too engrossed in our own world.
We detected someone with very bad BO.
I went out with 4 guys today.
Edmund odd one out cause you are not wearing spects.
ZhaoXiu's failed attempt at acting cute.
Joke of the Day:Gab(to Xiu): I think you should get a new bag, the bag you holding now don't suit you.
Xiu(pointing to Gab's bag): Get one like yours like that ar?
Gab: No la. Mine too feminine. Get something more erm...bisexual.
Edmund: Ya. Something more bisexual.
Daryl: Erm...Shouldn't it be unisex?
Gab: Oh ya hor. To think Edmund still understand what I talking about.
(All burst out laughing)
My first time coming to Pioneer MRT station.
Wake up la Edmund How.
Camwhoring at the void deck of XianWang's sister house while he went up to take the Wii station.
For once ZhaoXiu's eyes are bigger than mine. Don't wonder she so happy.
Argh!! She's gonna lick me. Stay away Bitch!!!
Do we look like puffer fish?
The 2 boring guys who can't be bothered with our camwhoring sessions.
This pose is inspired by Daryl. Like the fortune cat pose. Lol.
At XianWang's house waiting for the Wii to be set up.
The green tea we bought that day taste really weird.
Have you ever seen Donald Duck acting bimbotic? Now you did.XianWang's games is really damn funny and retarted. All brainless games but made me laugh my ass off. Retarded games but we retards still play them. We look so retarded playing them.
We played till dinner time so decided to order canadian pizza. Their cheese balls tatse weird. Too cheesy I guess?
Alantic(seafood) and Teriyaki flavor.
Damn, the camera angle so wrong. Made my ass look so frigging big.
Happy people that can't wait to eat.
Must camwhore some more before we leave. ZhaoXiu showing off her big butt again.
Gab is sad to leave.
You bitch, get away from my son!!
On the train way back home.I had a very fun day today though I know I was supposed to study today. It suddenly dawn on me that results are really bullshit. It's like a test of how big memory space you have in your brains and not really to prove you are smart or what. It is a unfair thingy. I feel that I've lost all the drive to strive hard. I can still remember in the past how hard I would mug whenever there is an exam round the corner. But right now, I just couldn't be bother about it. Have my state of mind went wrong?
I hate it when I think that we are close but we actually aren't. My wishful thinking again?
Was Bitching At 11:47 PM♥
Friday, August 21, 2009My week at loft
Have been living in the school days for quite a number of days for this whole week. I stayed on Tuesday night and made breakfast on Wednesday morning.
French toast made by Michael.
Breakfast finally done.
Everybody eating breakfast and lepak-ing. Looks like a happy family =>And we even did this Visa Go card video clip the night before. Freaking hilarious. Watch it at avtcrew.blogspot.com
Went to pick up my online spree stuffs at Jurong East yesterday. The bloody person was late for 10 minutes but at least I still got my stuffs.
The bags that I bought.
I think I got so many bags that I can soon open a shop. Lol.
After that waited for Izwan to pick me up to loft. Then we went for supper. Had a difficult time finding a not so expensive place to eat at Jalan Kayu. After supper, was supposed to head to marina barrage but we drove passed it and missed it so decided to head to west coast instead but then again we missed the place so we ended up at Mt.Faber. My first time being there. We had to walk uphill at that place but the night scenery was pretty. Had a scissor paper stone game with Izwan while walking up and down the steps and I won for both the times. Izwan just sucks at this game. We even did a mini trail. Reminds me of the days when I had to do training for Mt.Kinabalu. I missed that place man.
My camwhore and singing partner.
Me with a big fan of Russel Peter trying to imitate the dick face.
After that we went West coast again before slacking at the Macdonalds there and head back loft. Though everyone was tired but I really did enjoy myself a lot a lot. I had a sad feeling when I reached back loft. It felt as if all the fun time is going to go away and things will not be the same anymore.
Before you know it, it is over.
Was Bitching At 12:05 PM♥