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Mommy... It's over!!


Boy am I so glad that it is over and done with. And I think I did not do a bad job. So 99% I won't need to go back for re-test. Yup yup. That is my Japanese test that I'm talking about. One test down, 2 more to go. I think I'm starting to like Japanese more and more, though I still sucks at it. It is fun to talk with somebody in a language that the others can't understand.


Alright I just checked Mel and realised there is no photography lessons tomorrow. It is gonna be replaced by a badminton session. Haha. Just when I feel like playing so too. Great. I think I am starting to like badminton much more too. After all, I think it is so far the sport that I 'excelled' best in.


It seems like it is only when you lose something that you start to realise what you still have and what you are gonna gain. Maybe therefore the phrase 'No pain, no gain'? Oh whatever.



Enjoy the process and you will find the waiting of the results so much bearable.

Best buy of the day



Firstly,



HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED MISTRESS WEIX!!!



Finally 19th. Another one more year and there will be no more 'teen' in your age. So must treasure this very last year. Haha.



Since Weix likes to take ugly pictures of ROB, I decided to comb my pictures folder to see if I have any of hers. I only found 2. But they are not very ugly though. I guess the ugliest is still the family portrait given to me on my 18th birthday. Too bad they forbid me to post photos of it. Busted.


She can take ugly photos of you even when her eyes are closed.

She just likes sleep waking.


She is so gonna kill me when she see this post. Lol.



There is a compartment at the collar of the jacket to hide the hoody. Thought the material is not water resistant, but it is supposed to be water repellent. Cool shit.

Night animal in action


It's now going to be freaking 4am in the morning and here I'm typing this blog entry. Just finish discussing about my Japanese speaking test which is happening the coming Monday with PohYi. We chat for like 2hours before we finally get everything done. Speaking test is really such a headache.


I've to like get up again like in 3hours time for my bible reading sessions and I'm still here happily typing away. I think there is something wrong with me.


Anyway yesterday was a fun fun and very fun day. =>. We celebrated NigelZ's and Weix's birthday. We wanted to spray those snow foam on them but the spray can cock up on us. Damn. Loss of one interesting moment. Oh well. Lucky for those two. They must have been doing lots of charity to avert this disaster.


After school we sent to CWP's Sakae Sushi for lunch before heading for movies. I promise my stomach feel like bursting after the meal. And it still feels very full right now as I type. But we girls did ourselves proud by eating so much more than the guys' table. All thanks to LiLi. She was like some rice disposal machine.


We watched the movie 'The Passengers'. The show was actually kind of boring. The ending came and I went like: ' Erm...Was that the ending or is there still some more? '. And I didn't even get what the show was talking about till the others explained it to me. So overall, it is a show you should watch if you do not know where to spend your money on, or if you like the lead actress. I don't know what is her name but she sure is chio.


Oh ya. We did like this short video shoot yesterday for our MTS practical lessons and it was like so freaking funny. In the clip, I was supposed to act bimbo-tic, and I think I'm so cut out for the role. I feel like smacking myself when I watched the video though. My facial expressions were like so 'Oh my goodness'. Haha. I'd unleashed another side of myself. But it was so fun. I enjoyed it.


And Bashyir and Hafiz did lots of kinky stuffs in front of the camera today. So gross. But still very funny.


Alright, I still have to go shopping with Edmund later in the afternoon so I better get some rest. Toodles and Noodles till we eat Udons again. Woooh. It rhymes.



It feels good to be appreciated.

Getting on with my life


2nd week since school had started. So far, I still have not been late. 3 cheers for me. =>


Was supposed to meet Sugar today to go Penisular Plaza and fix Nato. In the end went out shopping with Edmund. I really hate Edmund. The shopping trip was supposed to be shopping for his CNY stuffs, but guess what? I ended up buying more stuffs than him. Lol.


Anyway today was the 1st time I ate at Carl's Junior. Now I understand why they say that you should share a meal rather than having one all to yourself. Right now I still feel my stomach trying her best to digest the food. I can hear her exhaustion.


It had been days since I last touched Nato. Couldn't find the chance to as these few days, I've been reaching home later than Mom. Oh right, for your information, Mom does not know the existence of Nato. Nato is hiding in a corner of my room and so far Mom has not noticed her. Mom does not really like me learning the guitar. She says its a waste of time, money, and that it is more suitable for guys rather than girls. How old-fashioned can she be. Anyway, just hope that she will continue not noticing it, or not I'll have to come out with a lie which I don't really wish to. I'm such a bad girl. =P



'Don't think too much', was what you always said to me. It was also the only thing I learnt from you. And now it is gonna be the thing to save me.

Me and my stupid thoughts


____ drove over last night to pass me my belated birthday and christmas present. Was quite surprise at the sudden initiative.


As what should be expected, nothing much happen. I guess that is the problem with me. I like to think too much and in the end disappoint myself. I had always been like that. Despite knowing the realities, I still drown myself in my stupid thoughts. I only got my own self to blame for all the traumatic feelings I had to go through.


I was sure I would have agree if you had asked last night, though part of my mind told me that it is never gonna happen. I even imagined the scene out. I even thought of what answers to give. Every minute that I waited, my hopes were building up. I was trying so hard to suppress them. Maybe I succeeded a little. Maybe not.


I saw you and I was tongue tied. I couldn't think of words to say and I didn't know how to react. All I could do was express my thanks, repeatedly. The situation was kind of awkward, but I certainly didn't want it to end either. My heart and my mind were screaming, screaming to tell you my feelings. But courage just let me down.


Your calm composure, it made me just feel like whacking myself awake. Seems like it does not mean a thing to you so why should I make such a big deal out of it? I'm so weak. When you turn and left, did you even have a tinge of un-willingness to leave? I'm not sure if I do. At that moment, my mind was at such a loss of what to do. Thinking back now, how I wish I could have stayed on and chat with you even more.


Though it is useless to say this now, but I should have never let it start. These feelings keep popping up every now and then. These feelings are making me feel so depress because these feelings will never get repaid. Since you had the heart to remember my birthday, to even get a gift for me, I should be contended already. My heart is screaming for something more, but I'm shutting it up. I know that if I attend to the screaming, it is not gonna do me any good. And perhaps, the screaming is bullshit. It could all be part of my useless thoughts trying to get some attention again.


All had already ended at that time, the day when you spoke the truth. Yet I still squash so much never-gonna-happen-fairytales into my own mind. So many 'what ifs' I told myself. So many 'maybes' I told myself. Time that I seriously stop all that nonsense cause there isn't gonna be any 'what if' and 'maybe' at all. Time for me to wake up.


There is still so much stuffs waiting for me to do, waiting for me to achieve. No time for me to be dreamy. The only way for me to stop those nonsense from re-surfacing, is to just push myself forward, real hard. I need to occupy every time that I have with stuffs. I need to have more goals to achieve. That is the only solution that I can think of.








You are going forward. So should I.









p/s: Those reading this entry and wish to know what happen, please don't ask me cause I don't wish to explain anything. Let mystery remains a mystery.

My stomach does not like evening classes




It had been like this for quite a long time, but it is only today that I noticed it.


Every time, after Japanese class, my stomach will start feeling very uncomfortable. It feels as if my stomach is tied up with rope. The tightening feeling is so uncomfortable, and it makes me feel like farting (of course is fart those gas with no smell one la). At first, I thought it may be cause of hunger pangs. So before lessons today, I gobbled up a doughnut, hoping it will ease the uncomfortableness that may/may not happen later.


Darn it. My stomach started the uneasy feeling 30mins even before my lesson ends. So it is not hunger pangs. Thus, I come to the conclusion that my stomach does not like evening classes since it only feel like this only when I am having evening classes.


I'm starting to think that my stomach has a brain. Anyway, looking at my size, no one will doubt even if my stomach really does have a mind of it's own. Aww. Not sure if that is a good or bad thing. But I guess its cool to have a stomach with a brain. =>


I've been thinking of opening a blogshop for quite some time but never really went into it. Still procrastinating. I've got an idea that so far, I guess no one had improvise it yet. But to make sure that the blogshop will be a success, there is so much to do and prepare. All that I've got are some rough guides and ideas only. There is still so much to know and do. Aww. Maybe I'll do it after the exams? Lol.

Nato is sick


So I was playing Nato and I realised that when I play the C note, Nato gave out a buzzing sound. At first I thought it might be because I am pressing down the string in a wrong way. So I kept changing the position of my fingering. But the buzzing sound still persists. Then I thought maybe I'm not pressing the string hard enough therefore it was enable to make full contact with the fret, thus the buzzing sound was created. So I pressed down the string even harder. Then I tried playing other notes too. The results? Red, painful fingertips with no change to the buzzing sound.


So I asked Andrew about it today. He said it is cause my guitar is not 'straight'. It is a alignment problem. Damn it. So I will have to go back to the shop and get it fixed. Thank God Nato is still under 3 months warranty. Poor Nato.


Haiz...Though it is just the start of the school term, I'm already feeling stressed out. We be having our exams near the end of February which just leave us like 1 more month of teaching week? And it seems to me that I don't understand all my modules at all. Oh man. Seems like my brain is unable to absorb all that had been taught. Freaking stressed.


Well, at least so far this first week had passed quite smoothly. I had not been late so far, which is a good head start. =>


Yup yup. Punctuality is one of my resolutions for this year. And also cutting down on my body mass. Though it had not increase, but my body mass had not been decreasing at all ever since I entered Polytechnic too. Boo-hoo.



Beauty is only skin deep, but looks matter. How ironic.

The birth of my newborn baby


Whoo-la-la. Yup yup. After talking about it so long, I finally got my guitar. Lots of thanks to Sugar. Actually wanted to get one that is totally black in colour but there isn't any design in it that looks nice, so in the end I got the traditional wood colour. Boring. But still, I guess it is the sound quality and the player that matters. I've been thinking of a name to give her. Or is it a him? Nah, looking at the pear figure, I think it is a her.


So like I said, I thought hard for a name for her. Then I saw this sticker pasted inside of her saying that her neck is made of Nato. Not sure what the heck it is but Nato sounds good, so that shall be her name. Actually, majority of the guitar is made up of Rosewood, but no way am I gonna name her that. It will just remind me of Mengting. Yucks.

Happy New Year


Firstly, a belated happy new year and merry christmas. I didn't blog on these two special dates and there are also a lot of activities and photos that I have not updated. You guys should know the reason why. Cause I'm just too FREAKING LAZY. Will do the updates when I have the mood and time to.


Made quite a few new year resolutions this year, but whether I will stick to them is another issue. This year seems to start off in a boring way. Firstly I didn't go for any countdown events cause I was lazy and do not wish to waste energy squeezing in a crowd. And my 1st day of the year was spent working. Well, at least there was 'double pay' to motivate me.


Sometimes, when you give, do you give in expectations of returns? Maybe you don't, but when a simple return of thanks is not even given, the feeling sure sucks. That is the same with service line, when you give your best to serve the customer, and not even a word of thanks is given, you sure feel like bashing the customer up. Then there is also the rude people who just ruined your day. Though this is something that I should already be used to, but there are still times when I don't really have a good mood and this kind of shit still happens and it really makes me feel sick of the human world.




There are 2 kinds of people, 1 that ruins a person's day, and 1 that brightens a person's day. I hope I'm the latter.